Something that made me happy today =)
Ugh March is almost over, and it freaks me outπ΅βπ« I feel like this is the first time I don't know exactly how things will go and how I can get through with all my work and wrap up my semester... Maybe I've been here before, but every semester is a blur at this point.
Take it one day at a time, one day at a time. I need to keep repeating this to myself so I don't feel so terrified of the unknown that I run away from everything. Anxiety and stress are no joke.
Anime atm π: Earl and Fairy
β Video call with a friend
β Breakfast
β Surprise party for friends
β Watch repair (it took me a year to take it somewhere to fix lol)
β Lunch
β 1 episode of anime
β Group project 1 paper
β Rewatch Skip Beat ep 19 (iykyk)
β Thesis (1 hours π) - I FINALLY DID IT!! SO PROUD!!
βΉοΈ Group project 2 paper
βΉοΈ Pay bills
I'm not letting myself go to bed unless I work on my thesis for 2 hours. My phone is locked away, so I know I can get it done. It really doesn't have to feel like a struggle every single day. I have finished harder things in the past π€
Me with my thesis:
Another super cool post for keepsake π©΅
Iβm always getting stressed out by things happening so here are some resources I find helpful
Music
I donβt know about you but I find piano music are really relaxing and soothing
Piano music playlist
Peaceful piano Spotify playlist by @spotify
Piano background music Spotify playlist
Rainy sounds
Burning fireplace sounds
Wave sounds
Videos, movies, dramas
Buzzfeed Celeb
Food
Buzzfeed Worth It Season [1/2/3/4/5]
Movies
Free movies/tv
Marvel movies masterpost by @girlintoomanyfandoms
Classic chick flicks by @jamescookjr
Cinemasins
Studytubes
Studytubes by @memorisu
AmandaRachLee
Cheyenne Barton (@studyrose )
Music
The Voice Kids [Australia/Germany]
Video games
Buzzfeed Multiplayer (eg. Until Dawn, Dead by daylight, Cooking Mama)
True crimes and supernatural
Buzzfeed unsolved
Comedies (old but gold)
Friends
Mind your language
Bewitched
Dr Ken suggested by @akydemics
Exercise
Fitness & health for student by @abby-studies-art
Deep breathing exercises
Sleep
Guide to sleep by @educatier
Tips for balancing sleep & education by @brbimstudying
The perfect night sleep by @paintitbright
How to go to bed early and actually fall asleep
Night routine and sleeping tips
Tips and tricks for getting enough sleep by @candydsgn
Meditation
Meditation and focus by @studyquill
Put a thought in the star
Treat yourself
Simple ways to treat yourself by @anitastudy
Guide to treating yourself by @pennyfynotes
25 No/Low cost self care acts by @gaygirlhustle
Water
How to drink more water ft printables
Hydration masterpost
Breaks
Use the pomodoro method where you study for 25 minutes and rest for 5 minutes to allow your brain to re-energise itself.
Take a break
Types of study breaks by @samsstudygram
Tips for getting better rest by @overstudies
9 things to do on a study break by @studyzine
Study break ideas by @gomedorgohome
What to do during a study break by @emmastudies
Things i do when taking a study break by @produitivity
Meals
Study break snacks by @gentlysoft
15 food to ease your study life by @studybowie
Easy recipes for students by @aestudier
Broke college kid masterpost by @dumplinghead-usagi
Bullet journal
Start a bullet journal
Apps
Apps that help me destress by @gracelearns
Forest
Overdrive
Positivity
My positivity tag
@chibird
@cwote
@lovelysuggestions
A website that compliments you
Who is the cutest
Quizzes
Buzzfeed quizzes
Pottermore quizzes
Others
Learn coding
All you need for high school
Math help and advice
How to take notes
Mental health masterpost
Ace your essays
Ace your exams
How to be productive
Free printables masterpost
Stationery masterlist by @architstudy
Other masterposts
Selfcare masterpost
I updated my semester planner over the weekend and am ready to refocus my time and energy to finish my 4th semester in this program.
I was caught up with time-sensitive tasks and reworking my planner again for most of today, but I promised my accountability buddy that I would work on my thesis at least a little. I need to remind myself that:
I can't say for sure that I come back stronger each time. But I know I come back wiser and more rested with every setback.
β Scheduled medical appointment (finally!)
β Read all school emails and replied
β Updated semester planner for the next 1.5 weeks (for 2 group projects)
β Updated calendar to work on group projects and thesis
β Wrote a personal article
β Therapy session
β Did laundry
β Find PPT slide for group project
Thesis Tasks
β Updated thesis writing schedule for this week
β Review advisor's feedback on thesis draft
β Made 1 correction (I skimmed through an article for this so I'm calling it a win)
Today's study concluded at 1:24am.
Study Music π§:
"The House of Wind | Magical Night Under the Starts with ACOTAR Spring Court Ambience" - Prythian on YouTube
Another day, another log β¨ It actually feels nice to have this check-in every day to see how I'm doing mentally and academically. Still not sleeping a lot this week because I call this month the "finals month" of PhD... Have a lot to finish, still have new tasks that get added each week, and I'm not even sure how many full days I have to take a break from it all after this month and in summer =/ Not the best situation, but at least I still get to do some things I like in the meantime π©΅
Current mindset:
β School β Case presentation (woohoo!) β Part-time job β See clients β Get an oil change for my car! β Get gas for weekend traveling β Phone call with partner β Client plan β Phone call with a friend β Watch Everyone Loves Me β Dinner β Clinic notes x2
βΉοΈ Clinic report - results 6 part 2 βΉοΈ Clinic report - results 7 βΉοΈ Clinic report - results 8 or Thesis - bullet points βΉοΈ Shower?
[End of study: 12:18am] I got frustrated with the cdrama so I ended up skipping through some episodes and stopped doing work for a bit... Ngl I'm getting tired so I think I'm gonna speed through one more episode and call it a night. Good night, lovely humans π₯±
I started working on school stuff again after everything that's been going on. It was nerve-wracking at first, having to go through a lot of emails and reply to some from weeks ago. BUT... I got through them all!
β Read (and organized) my school emails
β Research team meeting
β Review weekly task list
β Eat
β Take care of my dog
β Therapy session
β Finish 1 exam
β Added article summaries to class notes
What a relief! Now I can hop on Xbox to play with my partner and enjoy my dinner!!
I noticed myself living in fear whenever I started looking at my semester planner and seeing how many things I had failed to complete thus far. It is an overwhelming feeling that keeps me frozen and stuck.
I don't know if I can get everything done before the end of the semester. And right now, this is my worst nightmare. I have always succeeded in higher education and I think I have feared failure to this extent.
But my partner is right, I can do anything I put my mind to. This is not about whether or not I can do these tasks, it is the fact that everything needs to get done so what will I do now to make it happen. This is not about whether or not I have faith in myself and how hopeful I am about this situation or hopeless about the current misfortune, but what would the adult part of me do now to make things work out without minimizing my needs and suppressing my emotions.
This is a lot. It feels heavy like I am carrying bags of stones on my shoulders while climbing a mountain. But this time I need to face my fears like a responsible adult instead of running away from my troubles and avoiding everything.
I can do this. I WILL do this. πͺπ»
Nothing better than having my dog next to me while I am working hard on my thesis π©΅
P.S. Technically I asked for a cat but got chosen by a dog. I call it fate.
Today, I witnessed my growth. The same things no longer trigger the same reaction as I have learned to take a deep breath and trust in the process. I feel more in tune with myself, even though I did not get enough sleep the night before and the school day was long. Today feels like something finally shifted to the right direction, and I can hear my inner guidance clearly again. Today has been great so far =)
I think this is mostly thanks to my oracle card telling me to take "a day of silence." I haven't been alone with myself without music for a long time. I used to have evenings after work when I would unwind with chores and give myself time to process and express my inner thoughts. But grad school and living situations made it difficult. I didn't know how out of tune I have been with myself until I finally turned my thoughts and attention inwards today. It has been a wonderful experience so far. Awkward but meaningful.
β Group project 1 presentation π
β School
β Part-time job
β Watch Kaichou wa Maid-Sama!
β Break time + nap
β Call my parents
β Dinner
β Watch Earl and Fairy
β Read and reply to school emails
β Group project 2 paper (1.5 hours)
Finished but I'm not too satisfied because I didn't get to finish more of the project paper than I had wanted. Guess it'll just need to happen tomorrow.
Trying to take it easy and not be so hard on myself today π©΅
Good morning π I tried a new routine today and I love how I feel right now! Well, I didn't really change that much of my morning routine. I just decided to not cook and eat breakfast for an hour before I wrapped up my thesis work, which, to be honest, was motivating because I am starving right now and I finished revising my paragraphs in 1 hour (right?!!). I think I just saw that it was almost 1pm by the time I was able to cook breakfast, and I didn't want to drag on my day, feeling like I have my thesis dangling in front of me. So it was a BIG WIN!!! (if you haven't followed my progress so far, thesis tasks are the ones I procrastinate with the most lol)
Mood right now:
β Yoga β Walk my dog β Thesis revise paragraphs (guess I ate the frog this morning hehe) β Breakfast β Case study paper: do research (1 hour) β Case study paper: writing (3 hours lol) β Video review paper: read instructions β Dinner β Watch Love and Leashes (it's so good and very consensual!!)
βΉοΈ Shower (another reward!! most likely going to do this after the movie~)
SO PROUD OF MYSELF TODAY!!!
realizing life is a constant progress to be the version of me I choose to begrowthblr | phd | psychology | β | overthinker
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