Went To A Con!

I mean tell me in advance but yes!

reblog if you’re okay with people writing fanfics of your fanfics and/or fanfics inspired by your fanfics

On a mission to kill an angel.

“If you want something done, do it yourself.” - Napoleon Bonaparte

So here’s a 10~ min sketch of what I see in my head every time I read this line.

Out of context moment from a fanfiction I’m writing involving My Hero Academia and Deltarune.

sometimes you need dialogue tags and don't want to use the same four

:)

Does anyone have a link to a back-to-basics article about good fanfic practices, like standards of content and chapter length and such (speaking as an old fart who only wrote a couple of shitty one-shots back when lemons were a thing)

the stats spiral

That's what I call it when I start obsessing over the numbers I get on fics or posts. When I refresh AO3 every five or ten minutes to see if I've got more hits or kudos. When I keep my tumblr activity page open in a tab to see new notes as soon as they come in.

It's not fun. Not really. Even when I sometimes tell myself it is.

You see, it starts out exciting! I've put a thing out there and now I get to see the reactions to it! I'm like a kid on their birthday who can't wait to see their presents. What are people going to say? Will they like it? Will they talk to me about it?

I'm lucky enough that I do get notes on tumblr posts and I do get comments and kudos when I post on AO3. But depending on how excited I am about the thing that I made and depending on how uncertain I am of whether it's any good, I want to get a lot more attention than I end up getting.

I know that that's a normal feeling. I know it's even a rational one! I've put a lot of effort into making something, or I've made something that I think my community will like, and not hearing back like I'd hoped can sometimes feel like rejection. It can be a huge disappointment that makes me doubt myself, my abilities, my connection to my community.

That's why I say it's not fun. Because even though 'engagement' can give me a really high high, it can also give me a really low low.

When I finally realize I'm in one of those lows (and it sometimes takes me a while to realize that I am), that's when I know that I need to step away.

When it's really bad, I just stop posting until I'm in a better mental space. For me, I now recognize that those feelings are often coming from me wanting a connection of some kind. The need for attention is coming from a feeling of loneliness or isolation, and so I need to counteract that by reaching out to people I know and care about to have a chat or a meal or just some time spent doing something communal.

When I can catch it early, then I force myself to close the activity tab here on tumblr and hide whatever stats are making me spiral on AO3. I've learned to recognize that I'm looking to those metrics as a way to feel important or special or cared for in some way and that I need to figure out where I'm feeling insecure in my life and how to get some reassurance - because strangers on the internet won't be able to give me what I need.

If you're currently spiraling, first of all lemme give you a hug ❤️ I hope you can take some time and figure out what it is that you want those stats to tell you about yourself or what it is that you think those stats will give you that you're not getting from somewhere else.

And if you haven't heard it lately, I'm glad that you're in this world - no matter what kind of numbers you have on your posts.

hey, just a heads up, ao3 got scraped by a huggingface AI user. no idea if your fics were in the dataset, but paperdemonarpg put out an info notice on bluesky with a link that goes to their website, which details more info on the specific datasets. folks whose rights were infringed upon need to issue DMCAs separately, it sounds like.

figured it'd be good knowledge for you to have, and since you have a large following, it'd be far more beneficial for you to spread the word than i.

Ugh, it feels like it's getting scraped every few months for profit at this point. I hate this timeline. Thanks for the heads up.

So peak ;-;

Another request done! :D I used to watch My Hero Academia and I remember liking this little critter :) Thank you @bboshi for your order! 🥰🤍🤍

I can feel this sometimes.

Go walk for a bit, do something you can do without thinking, any simple task to let yourself brainstorm if you’re stuck.

Damn y’all work fast !!!

I recreated the Lightners Live sprites from the trailer for your jamming pleasure