When I Was Especially Depressed, I Would Often Ask Myself Things Like 'what Is My Purpose In Life', Or

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Bro i dont know if this is normal or not but like does anyone else just absolutely hate physical touch but crave it sm at the same time??

Its only from my qpps tho, like if i made a tierlist or smth it would be like:

- I can tolerate it but i hate it so much (most people are here, including many of my family members)

- I can tolerate it but im indifferent (some of my family)

- I can tolerate it and act ok tho i dont entirely like it (the remaining family members and closer friends)

And this is how it usually was until like 2 months ago when the 3 of us figured out we were actually in a qpr

So it has added a new level:

- I love it so much please just hold me or smth its so nice (only those 2)

And i dont understand bc whenever i explain it i sound touch starved tho i dont think that i am i just really like them making non sexual contact with me like cuddling or holding hands or whatever (especially cuddling i love it so much)

If it was not clear already by my very existence, i am a moron

This happened like last month but i forgot abt it until just now so whatever

For some context, im allergic to walnuts and almonds and i am lactose intolerant. Ive never had walnuts and my family never buys anything that has them in them, however we have some things that contain almonds and lactose in them. I am also left home by myself a lot

Now, you could probably tell where this is going, but one day i was by myself because i came home from school and i got bored.

Whenever i get bored it is not a good thing i always do something stupid

My mom had bought almond butter dates the day before. So like a totally normal human, i thought "hey, ykw im bored, lets see if im still allergic to almonds!!" (Spoiler alert: i am.)

So i had some, and while i didnt have that bad of an allergic reaction my throat was still very itchy and my chest hurt a little. And so in order to try to make my throat less itchy, i tried drinking milk which, obviously, made it worse

I should also mention we dont have epipens nor do i know how to use one, my parents just never got any

So tl;dr (idk if its long enough to warrant this but i dont really care) I was home alone, eating stuff im allergic to, with no way to stop any reaction if it happened bc im just soo smart

So I did a thing.... I have many regrets....

Did I unexpectedly tear up when reading this? Yes, yes I did.

From Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin

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WE OUT THE GRIPPY SOCKS JAIL BITCHESSSS

i got psych ward stories to share at some point, anyone that wants to hear will get them

also ill continue yttd as bidoofs at some point to just not rn

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