" She's like a closed book hiding on the farthest part of a shelf, tightly hugging herself , Afraid that someone might ruin her pages again."
- H.Asteid, Ruined Pages
"Why would you want to be with someone who only love you sometimes?"
-H.Asteid
"I'm scared." Looking up at the night sky, trying not to fall apart.
I felt him scoot closer to me.
"Scared of what?"
I hesitated for a moment.
" I... I'm scared of the thought that this might be the last time I'll be making coffee for my Dad, the last time I'll iron and fold his clothes. I'm scared of the thought of his heart breaking when I'm not here anymore.
I'm so scared that I feel like I won't be able to witness the sun shine again, that today might be my last day."
I said looking down at my shaking hands, suddenly ashamed of my revelation.
But his next words gave my heart a sense of something foreign...Hope.
" You're scared.
Isn't that enough reason to stay?"
-H.Asteid
How many more sonnets do you I have to write for you?
How many more steps to do I have to take to get to you?
You see, I'm running out of ink
And it's like my knees are about to give in
But I kept writing
I kept walking
Coz honey, you're inked in my mind like a tattoo
You're like the cups of coffee I consume
Cup after cup after cup
Still, I can't get enough
I can't stop!
I can swim, Believe me I can swim
But my heart seems to be so fascinated with your depths
That it doesn't mind getting drowned in it.
But you won't let me in.
You'd leave your door slightly ajar then you'd slam it on my face,
You'd pull me close then you'd pull away
You have me wrapped around your thumb
That when you ever you needed a hit, I'll be your drug.
It's insane! I mean...
I think it's the other way around
You.
You are my drug.
Your love's my addiction
But the way it's consuming me right now,
Tells me...
That you are both my sweet salvation and also, the road that would lead to my own destruction.
- H. Asteid, One-sided Sonnet
" And If I could only keep from death, I would."
-H.Asteid
— Arundhati Roy, The God of Small Things
" This may sound crazy to you but...If she were a cliff, I won't even hesitate to take the leap."
- H.Asteid