Rune Lazuli

Waves will pass. That's what they do.

"My soul has been so fearful, so violent: forgive its brutality."

—Louise Glück, RIP

i’m tired, can’t think of anything and want only to lay my face in your lap, feel your hand on my head and remain like that through all eternity.

Tortured poet

“Perhaps, somewhere, some day, at a less miserable time, we may see each other again.”

— Vladimir Nabokov

i think i am so enamored with devotion as violence, because i want someone to love me even when i am covered in blood. most days, i am more teeth than lips. more claws than hands. more desperation than gentleness. if i am to love, i want it to consume me as surely as a forest fire. when the smoke has cleared, trees will grow stronger than before. i will only let my wounds be tended to by someone unafraid of gore, and i fear softness hurts more than any double edged sword. if i am to be loved, let it be in a slaughterhouse we might make into a home. then the heartache will be holy. and i will be whole.

― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

drowning in thoughts

but words full of desert

why am i cold

but burning away?

mom, your child reads crime and punishment for fun

“I am a different person to different people. Annoying to one. Talented to another. Quiet to a few. Unknown to a lot. But who am I, to me?”

— Unknown