In The Club Freakin It Wilson Style

intro 🩷

Name: Belle, but you will still prob associate me with my url lol

Age: 19

Pronouns: Any/all don't careeeee

Additional Notes:

- House MD is the only thing that currently brings me joy oopsie!

- Theatre kid to the extreme (i'm a theatre major 😔)

- I sew and crochet a lot of my own clothes

- Lesbian

- I ramble a lot and write bad poetry so beware

- might edit this if people ask questions

damn what was I on lol

my personal experience with DPS and other ramblings

my mother introduced me to the film when I was about 13 or so and I immediately latched onto it and made it part of my personality. i became an extremely pretentious high schooler and would unironically say shit about sucking the marrow out of life (and yes I am embarrassed about it now)

but when I was applying for colleges and I told my mom I wanted to be a theatre major she kinda lost her shit and told me that it was a stupid waste of time and money and i was absolutely GOING THROUGH IT

fast forward to now, I'm a junior in college (theatre major) and I watched DPS with my mom and my brother (his first time watching it) and I realized that my mom fundamentally misunderstood the point of the movie

I will never forget her telling me that she AGREED WITH NEIL'S DAD AND THAT KEATING WAS A DANGEROUS PERSON AND A BAD EDUCATOR

my brother who is into stem and is unappreciative of the arts anyway said that Neil was just kinda stupid and that the movie wasn't that good (????? major side eye on that one but whatever)

i just got so sad for little 17 year old me. she was incredibly sensitive and fragile and I just wonder had my mother been even just slightly harsher about me being a theatre major what would have happened to me?

then a few weeks ago I was talking to my friend. she's the type of person you don't have casual conversations with, you immediately dive into philosophy and morals and art and knowing each other's souls.

we got to the topic of dead poets society and the people who "just don't get it". the people who watch it once and never think about it again. the people who are so content that they are happy to remain stagnant. those who don't yearn for change, or to be known, to make art. those who are content to live and not

Live!!!!

and I'll never understand them and they'll never understand me. and the world will continue on like this. there will be people who stand still and those who can't stop moving

burn the house down with the toast

You took my pen by accident

I remember more that most

You took my heart on purpose

Burn the house down with the toast

You made my walls come screeching down

The friction started a fire

You took my crown, my wealth my pride

Now ashes on a pire

an angelic silence

i cherish loneliness

i cling to it like apron strings

i crave it amidst the hurricane of company

the click of a lock, a clatter of limbs

a breath

and an angelic silence takes hold

everything cast in a buttery light of magma

and for a moment the screeching stops

and i'm not anything anymore

Shoutout to @boygeniusmemes, this is me everytime I rewatch the movie.

is having crushes on boys real?

cause I genuinely thought it was a bit. like....idk growing up a closet lesbian with parents who hate each other made me think that heterosexual love wasn't real but you deal with it anyway cause that's life. come to find out that some women are obsessed with their boyfriends like...for real...

the snowglobe came in a pack of two, who do i put in the other one????

different from my regular content but I'd like to introduce you to my Dr. James E Wilson snowglobe

he likes it in there

life's little beauties are too sweet to not be sampled and savored

this is why i snowglobe-ified him, he IS very good to shake

Is this a safe space? Do you understand me pls pls pls pls pls not oomfs even understand. I would like to put him in a jar and shake it the hyperfixation is not good oml

20th birthday

idk how to feel

will update